I want to share all the things that God knows I can’t keep within me, things I want to reveal. I want to do it only to the people who don’t know me and one of them is you. Thank you for your time. I need someone who can read my heart through my blog. I don’t know if you can or will understand me but it doesn’t matter. I don’t even understand myself.
Although I’m a bit happy now because of one prayer granted and one decision I made I’m not yet satisfied of what that prayer granted brought to me. I was fully in the dark side before I made a decision, but things changed. I decided to be in between god’s and lucifer’s side. I chose life and death. Even though one of my prayer granted that I might choose to live, my suicidal mind will remain forever.
You know… because of that one prayer granted my emotions gets balance everytime. When I failed to something or I went sad or depressed I still feel my happiness. It’s a good thing.
I have the desire to learn both side (God and Lucifer’s side) so I would have final decision of which way will I take or I’ll take my own way. I’m happy right now to write something about this stuff but at the same time I’m not comfortable with my basic English words I use because I feel like it’s so plain. Honestly, when I was in high school my favorite subject is English. I wasn’t smart enough learning from school because I was so shy. I only learned how to write sentence which helpful for my writing now. I didn’t tried to learn harder because my high school life is full of depression. But now I’m willing to learn… because I dare to get the “change” I longed for a very long time. I don’t want to wait. I want “change” to wait for me. Because “Change is Mine”.
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