As a suicidal, it's hard for me to try to be strong in all circumstances. I have many difficulties and misunderstanding in our home almost everyday between me, my brother and his children. Wished I could disappear forever every time I face it. Sometimes the music set me free for a while. It's like I'm under the water and music is one of my option to breathe for a moment. Although sometimes, some of the songs I used to play bothers my heart and flash some memories of the past. Part of the memories is the "old me".
They have no idea that the important and real part of me have died long time ago and the people around me changed me and still changes me. Seriously, they brings more depression to me. They are my depression. Wish I could just go away and leave them but it's not easy because I'm not like that. But I want to be free. I want to breathe more and more. I want more from life.
My name is Jane.
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