My Mother and My Father are the most important people in my life. They are the people that I cannot lose. My mother never had the chance to go to school, to learn to write and read. So she have a lot of thing that she don’t understand. She have many experiences in life so she learned many things about life. “Family” is really important to her. She is so selfless. Why I said that? Because she gives more than she can give to us. I remember when I was a little, as a kid I’m always hungry. We didn’t have enough food but she always find a way so we could eat. She never failed to take care of us, especially me, her youngest daughter.
*Date Written: July 16, 2017*
Last Sunday was the best Sunday for me because I felt so calmed and comfortable to express what’s on my mind and in my heart. I felt eagerness to learn more and write more. That most amazing moment made changes within me. It made me more confident, more motivated and energized. Which is so good.
My real name is Jane. I have many alias before because I wanted to keep my identity anonymously entering The Online World. When I went back to blogging I decided to use an alias that doesn’t go so far from my real name because I don’t know what else I would use. I don’t want an artist name or any name, I want an alias that is mine alone. I added “RA” to my name which are came from my middle name initial and my surname initial. That’s the whole story of Janera.
Seven years ago I was depending my income through PTC sites or what they call Paid to Click. You will get paid by just clicking ads and completing tasks from Crowdflower Company. I earned from cents to dollars. I was just a student who don't have the courage to try other things to earn money so I was depending my earnings via online job because I wanted to have money on my own hard works and in my own way.
Date written: July 9, 2017 Sunday 4:28 pm
I've done something wrong today just to be honest and I've said or I can say I've let go some words to my brother. Yes it's a little bit hurtful for him I gues because what I hate about him is that whatever I said to him it's like nothing. He doesn't care about our issues within the house. (I'm sorry Kuya. I didn't mean to hurt you).
As a suicidal, it's hard for me to try to be strong in all circumstances. I have many difficulties and misunderstanding in our home almost everyday between me, my brother and his children. Wished I could disappear forever every time I face it. Sometimes the music set me free for a while. It's like I'm under the water and music is one of my option to breathe for a moment. Although sometimes, some of the songs I used to play bothers my heart and flash some memories of the past. Part of the memories is the "old me".
From Abs-Cbn, I switched to other Channel which is GMA 7 but I only watch Sugod Bahay In Eat Bulaga's Segment because of My Favorite Host Paolo Ballesteros. And My Favorite Host and Comedian in Abs-Cbn Network is Vice Ganda. Years ago, I am a fan of Vice Ganda and I remained a fan because of his Natural Unique Instinct. I can't stand watching one channel only. I switch to other channel to find my satisfaction on watching. I find a program that not only can make me happy but will also make me smile or laugh and change my mood. There's only two Celebrity that can do that for me and that are Vice Ganda and Paolo Ballesteros.
My name is Jane.
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