Date written: July 9, 2017 Sunday 4:28 pm
I've done something wrong today just to be honest and I've said or I can say I've let go some words to my brother. Yes it's a little bit hurtful for him I gues because what I hate about him is that whatever I said to him it's like nothing. He doesn't care about our issues within the house. (I'm sorry Kuya. I didn't mean to hurt you).
Though it was unforgetable bad conversation, though I felt my heart beating so fast that moment. I still have a peaceful moment today. This moment I hope will lasts but I don't believe it will. Because life is full of ups and downs. There are time you are happy or sad. There are times you're in peace and sometimes something is bothering you. Not all the time and not everyday you're in peace wheather you're at your comfort zone or somewhere else.
It's peaceful because while I'm writing this, I feel peace and hope or whatever but all I feel is good and balanced. Because there are things that bothering my heart and mind but I rather feel the peace for a while than worry. I can breathe though I can't think enough. I can write though I have no Idea how it will end but it doesn't matter. While doing it I love to cherish the moment to remember the man I loved, My Father. It's a little bit teary moment.
Sometimes when I think of my strength, I wonder why where is it coming from. I'm not a even a strong person. I can be motivated but just for a while. Because my pain is greater than anything. I have this strength of "I must do what I've never done before to get what I want". This strength I hope it's from God or from my father. Wherever it came from I like it. I will hug it. I really need it. This strength is a like the 3 pesos coins that my father give me when I need money to buy snacks or bread because I'm always hungry. This strength may not lasts until tomorrow but I hope it will make a mark inside my heart.
It brought me a little bit of motivation to write more, do something else and fix the pieces I know I can fix but I didn't try to fix because I can't spend time for it but now I can. No one and nothing can stop me for today to do those things! Thank God and to My Papang.
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